Showing posts with label heartache. Show all posts
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Saturday, January 16, 2010

Shiver, Maggie Stiefvater, Scholastic, 390 pages


Yes, I am finally posting this review. I picked this book up the day it was released without knowing what it as about really, and without having read anything else by Maggie, or having people around me to say, “Oh, Maggie Stiefvater wrote that, you should totally get it.” Pretty much I saw the cover and went, “Huh, that’s cool.” read the sleeve, and said, “Oh a wolf, cool. Okay.” Then bought it.

This book sealed the deal for me and I have been a fan ever since, reading both Lament and Ballad as quickly as I could get my hands on them.

I think this was probably the first book that really flipped back and forth between the main characters. I’ve read books since Shiver that did this and were released before Shiver, but this one introduced me to that style and I was happy to have Sam’s perspective.

The way Sam shifted was unique and I thought the backstory on how young he was, and what happened with his parents helped me to “feel closer” to him. He wasn’t just some boy that was a wolf, he was a boy with demons and that made him more real.

Grace was alright.

No, I’m kidding. I thought the fact that Grace’s parent’s neglection was there set it apart from most stories like this. Usually parents are non-existent, or dead, or abusive. But I liked how there scatteredness was actually a reason why Grace was how she was, was clever. Was that cryptic enough?

I thought that bit of info was clever. Very clever Mrs. Stiefvater.

I do have questions, of course, since this is a trilogy, I suppose that’s the point. Give me a little now so I’ll want more.

And I do.

Linger comes out July 20th, so we have to wait another 5 months, *sigh*


and now for the beautiful quotes I loved...


"You're beautiful and sad," I said finally, not looking at him when I did. "Just like your eyes. You're like a song that I heard when I was a little kid but forgot I knew until I heard it again." For a long moment there was only the whirring sound of the tires on the road, and then Sam said softly, "Thank you."


"Sam,' the girl said. “Sam.”

She was the past present and future. I wanted to answer , but I was broken.


"So, Grace, how's school?" I asked myself.

Dad nodded, eyes on the baby koala now struggling in the guest's arms.

"Oh, it's fine," I continued, and Dad made a mumbling noise of agreement. I added, "Nothing special, aside from the load of pandas they brought in, and the teachers abandoning us to cannibalistic savages-" I paused to see if I'd caught his attention yet, then pressed on. "The whole building caught fire, then I failed drama, and then sex, sex, sex."

Dad's eyes abruptly focused, and he turned to me and frowned. "What did you say they were teaching you in school?"


“You two are too cute,” the counter girl said, setting two cups piled with whipped cream on the counter. She had a sort of lopsided, open smile that made me think she laughed a lot. “Seriously. How long have you been going out?”

Sam let go of my hands to get his wallet and took out some bills. “Six years.”

I wrinkled my nose to cover a laugh. Of course he would count the time that we’d been two entirely different species.

“Whoa.” Counter girl nodded appreciatively. “That’s pretty amazing for a couple your age.

Sam handed me my hot chocolate and didn’t answer. But his yellow eyes gazed at me possessively—I wondered if he realized that the way he looked at me was far more intimate than copping a feel could ever be.

I crouched to look at the almond bark on the bottom shelf in the counter. I wasn’t quite bold enough to look at either of them when I admitted, “Well, it was love at first sight.”

The girl sighed. “That is just so romantic. Do me a favor, and don’t you two ever change. The world needs more love at first sight.”


I said uselessly, "Sam, don't go."

Sam cupped my face in his hands and looked me in the eyes. His eyes were yellow, sad, wolf, mine. "These stay the same. Remember that when you look at me. Remember it's me. Please."

“Please don't go."

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Candor, Pam Bachorz, Egmont, 249 pages


(Nov. 21) It’s hard to describe how I felt about this book.

I liked it. Couldn’t put it down, pages kept drawing me in. But by the middle when everything started to fall apart for Oscar I couldn’t help but feel a loss.

A loss of hope.

And that hope never returned.

I still have it with me. It hurts my heart a little.

It was a great story. Well done.

The characters were pretty believable, even in their Stepford Wives way.

Oscar was cool, smart, strong.

Nia was a little dark and artsy and an individual.

What happened to them was heartbreaking.

Like I said I couldn’t put it down.


The Forest of Hands and Teeth, Carrie Ryan, Delacorte Press, 310 pages


(Nov. 4)I am unsure how I felt about this book. Some moments I liked it others I hated. I didn’t hate the story, I thought it was clever. I guess I should say some moments I liked Mary but most moments I hated her. Though hate seems such a harsh word, I despised her, wanted to smack her. Thought she was really really selfish. It was heartwrenching watching her life play out, almost from word go.

And I did cry. Real tears. More than once. So in that aspect I think Carrie did an amazing job in making me apart of the story. Drawing me in.

But in the end I still had too many unanswered’s.

I figure they will be answered in the companion novel titled, The Dead-Tossed Waves. It sounds really good, but I’m hoping for more than just Mary to be a character we see again. Meaning I hope some of the others from TFHT aren’t gone. Did that give away too much? I don’t think so.

I was so taken with the world that Mary and the others were a part of. There was so much heart-ache, I just had this ache the whole time I read the book. Some of you may wonder, if it’s that painful, why, why would you put yourself through it. Because it makes you feel.

You know how there are some moments when you want to watch a movie you know will make you cry?

Kind of like that.


North of Beautiful, Justina Chen Headley, Little Brown, 373 Pages


(Oct. 6) Oh My GOODNESS!!!

Wow!

It took me a full week, A FULL WEEK! to finish this book. Not because it was bad, completely opposite actually. It is one of the most complicated, beautiful, intricate stories I’ve read.

The story of Terra’s family and friends and the transformation from who they were to who they become was amazing, heart-wrenching even.

I loved the relationship between Terra and Jacob from word go. They had such great chemistry, good banter but not overdone.

The disfunction of Terra’s family was so real, so raw, so truthful it made me think of mine. Not that my family is like hers exactly, but it was nice to see a real family portrayal where family is actually a part of the story.

I highly, Highly, HIGHLY recommend this book, and will pick up her other two at some point.


I only have one quote, although there were many, I picked a long one that I do not believe will ruin it for you.



In their own haphazard, clumsy ways, they were trying to tell me that I was fine the way I was. That I wasn’t alone. I didn’t have the language to communicate that to this little girl-or to communicate beauty-real everlasting beauty-lives not on our faces, but in our attitude and our actions. It lives in what we do for ourselves and for others.

So I did the best thing I could.

For a long moment, I waited for her gaze to lift away from my birthmark and back to my faded blue eyes. When she did, I realized I knew all the Mandarin I needed to express myself to this girl.

In my faltering Chinese, I used the same words Jacob’s caretaker had when she saw him. I told her in words that I struggled to say to myself whenever I looked in a mirror.

“Hao kan,” I said gently, quietly, firmly as if it was a pact between the two of us.

She blinked. I wasn’t sure if she understood. Or if she believed that she was beautiful. So I pointed to her and then to me. And I repeated with utter conviction, “Hao kan.”

Those words, my pronouncement, won me the girl’s slow nod. I nodded back. And when she smiled, wide and open, I tell you, there was nothing more beautiful than that.

Leaving Paradise, Simone Elkeles, Flux, 303 Pages


What happens when the person who damaged you for life...becomes the person you trust the most?

Caleb Becker spent the last year in juvenile detention.

Maggie Armstrong spent the past year in hospitals and physical therapy.

Two teens who were scarred one fateful night are going to have to face their greatest challenge yet-meeting up with each other again.



Okay, so I’ve gone over how to write this review a dozen times in my head and I can’t. I can’t because I know I will give away the ending. And I’ve tried revising it like four times. It still hasn’t changed anything.

I have to! I have to rant and rave! I can’t keep it in. I’m trying, I really am.

Sigh.

This book was/is amazing! I literally devoured it, and when I say that I mean I started reading it this afternoon around 2, had to put it down and then picked it back up again this evening and finished it right before 1 in the morning. I think it was about 4 hours, maybe 4 1/2. It was that good.

I just needed to figure these people out. Figure out what happened. Make sure they got through all the crap.The romance between the two main character’s was believable, there were times throughout the book where, even though I really liked Caleb and Maggie, I hated them both for brief moments because of things they did or things they said, or didn’t say.

Simone writes beautifully and she keeps you engaged the whole time. Well, most of the time, I don’t think I was so engaged when the football games were on, or when the cheerleaders showed off their cheer. No offense to the cheerleaders out there. I think it was more the fact that they were attention seekers.

Okay, I really can’t keep it in.

I know it’s horrible of me that I’m going to spoil it for some of you. I just have to tell someone.

No! I shouldn’t.


My heart hurts.


I can’t, I just can’t keep it in, so if you haven’t read this book don’t read beyond me saying that it is a book I highly recommend. Simone’s writing style is real and raw and emotional and you are sucked into these characters lives and you feel like you are there.


That being said, I loved this book, no I hated it, no I loved it, (spoiler ahead, seriously stop reading if you haven’t read this book)


Stop now...


I hated the ending. Like I said earlier it made my heart hurt. Oh my gosh how my heart just aches. Which if you think about it to me is the sign of greatness. That I have actual physical pain about this book and that I ruminated on it for days afterwards. I even told my husband that this book really made me sad. He’s not a reader so I don’t usually share my feelings about books I’m reading cause I know it will be hard to grasp.

I’m sorry Simone, I really love your books and I really admire your writing style and your stories and everything but I hate you for ending this book this way.

There, I’ve said it.

The characters are believable, I hated Kendra, really liked Maggie and Caleb. Mrs. Reynolds was pretty cool too.

The storyline was a good one with a twist I didn’t see coming and I’m usually pretty good at figuring them out beforehand.

Seriously, it’s now morning and I just put my daughter back to sleep and it seems like every time I’ve woken up this book has been with me.

Kudos to you Ms. Elkeles.

Now, I usually try and give you at least one quote from the book. Something to wet your appetite (sometimes I give you more)


I find her taking lemons out of the refrigerator. I watch as she cuts and squeezes them into a pitcher.

“Are you following me?” she asks, but doesn’t meet my gaze.

“Yeah,” I say.

“Why?”

“Honestly?”

She looks at me, her eyebrows raised.

I give her the only honest and true answer I have.

“You’re where I want to be.”